I don’t like being hungry. I kind of knew that already, but I didn’t realize the lengths to which I’d go to avoid that feeling. The sugar fast I’ve been doing has made me so much more aware, not only of what I’m consuming, but just how much I eat or drink. Being hungry in and of itself is not a bad thing. It can be awkward, and moods can be affected if you’re not getting enough. However, there’s a difference between mood altering hunger and not being full.
The fast has reiterated through a number of their daily devotionals that sometimes we need to be aware of our physical hunger to help us understand what we’re really craving – more Jesus.
It’s been eye opening to realize I head to my pantry when my heart is really wanting me to take a moment to pray, or soak in God’s wonderful Word. Though slow to admit this to myself, and here, it’s been a step in the right directly of growing my relationship with Jesus more intentionally, rather than figuring out what snack is healthy enough to not feel guilty over.
I can’t deny I’m looking forward to allowing a treat now and then when these 40 days are up. I am very grateful for the opportunity to reset, repent, and continue my journey of transformation into His likeness.
An excerpt from today’s devotional from Christie Thomas on the 40 Day Sugar Fast Team.
“This week my 3 year old heard the parable of the lost sheep, and he told it to me with gusto (while stumbling over most of the words). I asked him what the shepherd did when the sheep got lost, and my looked at me like it was the dumbest question in the world. Without hesitation, he told me, “He found da sheep.”
Friend, you and I can get so lost, even during this fast. Just this week, I lost myself to complaints, grumbling and wishing that I hadn’t gotten myself into this crazy-fast yet again. But even in the midst of my bad attitude, God gently drew me back toward himself.
There’s more than one way to be lost. We can get lost in our bad attitudes and apathy, lost in our addictions (like a food addiction!), or lost in pain. We all, like sheep, have gone astray. None of us is content to sit in the fold all the time. But our Maker and Shepherd doesn’t even hesitate.
He finds us.
We may not always want to be found, and we may not always turn around to see the Shepherd beckoning to us. But that’s what this fast is all about. We’re finally aware of just how far we’ve wandered and just how lost we are. “I got a little lost in sugar-land” is all we can mutter, when we realize that the Shepherd has been right here with us, gazing fondly at us the whole time. We didn’t recognize Him — and that makes us different from true sheep! They recognize the shepherds face, and His nearness.
…We often laugh about the silliness of sheep, but at least sheep know their master’s voice and face! We prefer to tune out the soft voice of our Shepherd, choosing instead to live out of our own strength or out of our addictions. But God’s promise is that He will always find us. He will “find da sheep”. We just have to turn around and run into His waiting arms.”